December 2011
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1 hour before new year and I already in my blanket, miles away from Jakarta, miles away from you
Today I get a quote, blessed is the person who’s too busy to worry during the day and too sleepy to worry at night. That’s actually what would describe me in 2011. So I take it as, I’m very blessed! :D
2010 has been very tough because I was in a crossroad. First crossroad was when...
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“A warrior of light does not waste his time listening to provocations; he has a...”
– Paulo Coelho
When I met you, after we talk, I can’t help but wondering: how could anyone leave such an interesting person
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“We are always concerned with finding answers. We feel that answers are important to understand what life means. “It is more important to live fully, and allow time to reveal to us the secrets of our existence. If we are too concerned with making sense of life, we prevent nature from acting, and we become unable to read God’s signs.”
From Maktub by Paulo Coelho
Dear Sahver,
I’m...
I appreciate honesty and I’ve been an open mind person. But then it’s almost make me look like a lunatic, listen to some crazy stories but stay chill and not responding like a normal people should. I question that thin line of limit. Of just shut my mouth up and nod, or shout: “Grow up and do the f*cking right thing with your f*cking life!”
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Unavailable Soulmate
You effortlessly started the conversation And I didn’t question you We talked like an old friends With a little chemistry that felt Everytime you touch- even only the tip of my jacket
We talked about deep thoughtful things Like whether love is overrated Or does karma exist
We complete each other sentences I confuse why you can think of the same thing From time to time I have to say,...
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If my worries can speak
If my worries can speak It would speak days and night Simply unstoppable Like the old lady trying to tell stories about war Or her love stories when she was young If my worries can speak They will ask me to meet you Or text you Or talk to you Anything towards you If my worries can speak They will let me know It’s you; Only you The remedy Of all the worry
I need you
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Maybe you'll tell me someday
Maybe you’ll tell me someday Why in the warm summer day; you go away I know it’s going to be distance and different timezone And your sunrise could be my sunset Good nights and good mornings will lose its literal meaning
But maybe you’ll tell me someday How damp and dark road will lead you To a nice looking cafe near the river Violinist play our favorite songs and you’ll...
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Flirt
Your eyes is the first thing I notice It’s something about it that mesmerize me Maybe it’s because I have that plain dark brown eyes Less richness in colors like what I see in yours I asked you, what’s the name of the color That happens to burst out from your sparkling eyes And you said you didn’t know either You asked me to give a new name of color It could be frosty...
My iPad is full with ‘other’ things. Not apps, not books, not music, it’s other things. Turned out it’s something I stored unintentionally and I forget on Apps that makes my iPad slowing down. Maybe that’s what happened to life too. We stored unneccessariy thing in our brain that soon or later slowing us down. Maybe we should ‘cleanse’ our mind sometimes.
My friend is a psychic; she can “see the future” and other extra ‘talents’ like reading mind. One day she met the guy that hurts her heart, she pour all her pain to me.
I listen to her but I also can’t help asking, “But… You KNOW this will happen. Why you keep going out with him anyway?”
She said, “I appreciate process.”
That indeed...
Beautifully Imperfect
Watching a video and suddenly remember my ex husband. I still live in the same house we used to live in, and there are some void after he left. From his snoring sound, the sound of fridge opened after midnight, the sound of him making his own coffee at 3am, his favorite javanese songs played on his PC, to the beep sound when he click the Air Condition back on (because I can’t stand cold and...
sambernyawa asked: Nice blog. Who are you by the way ?
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About Taking Off Hijab
I am shocked and sad when I see my hijabi friend update her pictures on social media and she’s no longer wearing anything to cover her head. It’s not like I never seen anyone taking off hijab before, but because I thought she’s a good role model for Muslimah and I somehow feel heartbroken when she decide to take off her hijab.
So I started doing research (googling to be exact)...
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Met Bret Terril the first time months ago. He’s formerly known as one of the boss of Zynga. Now he’s starting a new venture. We were stuck in traffic together, and we ended up talking about everything.
“Ollie, tell me, what’s the secret of writing that many books? What’s your formula?”
“Is that something special? I don’t think I have a...
I suddenly remember my friend.
He was sick, cancer caught him over and over again. I came to the hospital with a book. It’s a design trend book (he’s a designer). Not a common light book you bring to a sick person.
That day he’s still very weak after chemo. But he wake up and talk to me. He was alone and we talked for hours. About everything, from his family, his smart son...
Mary, what is there in a storm that moves me so ? Why am I so much better and stronger and more certain of life when a storm is passing ? I do not know, and yet I love a storm more, far more, than anything in nature.
(Extract from one of Gibran’s letters dated 14th August 1912)
“When I open them, most of the books have the smell of an earlier time leaking out between the pages - a special odor of the knowledge and emotions that for ages have been calmly resting between the covers. Breathing it in, I glance through a few pages before returning each book to its shelf.”
― Haruki Murakami, Kafka on the Shore
I’ve been in a situation in my life, where I can see something I usually love best, and I can’t react the way I should. Like when it’s shoes sale. Up to 70%. And I have no desire to even come closer and try on shoes like I used to do.
For me, the experience is new & painful. Not because I missed the 70% discount. But because I lost myself and I don’t know why and how...
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“You’re very old.”
AE said to me one nice afternoon over our tea session. She’s referring to my soul age. How I act so ‘old’ compared to my real age.
I’m not surprised. Sometimes I think I’m older than my parents.
“You need a man with psychological maturity,” she continues.
I sip my tea.
“I know.”
I speak to the rain
About how I feel
And how’s my day going
Hoping tomorrow it form back to cloud
Then rain your way
Hope you get my message
“I don’t want to own anyone. As in relationship or sumthing.”
“Why is that?”
“Because wanting to own someone is the first step of getting hurt.”
Today should be a special day, for 3 years ago I marry my bestfriend.
Today should be a special day, but it’s not (anymore).
I’m afraid; Soon there is nothing more to talk about other than saying miss you so much
That awkward moment when you’re covered head to toe and a man still called you ‘sensual’
On a freezing night in Seoul
In that pond you can throw coins of hope
People pray; so I think I need to pray too
I find my prayer was so typical
That kind of prayer about getting rich quickly or passing exams
But mine is about finding love, or if I found it, make it lasts
Whatever lasts mean
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Where could we have disappeared to? Everything that seemed so important back then - where could they have all gone? -Haruki Murakami - Norwegian Wood
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Baby talks. It’s complicated and very personal. Most women these days hate the kind of conversation. In Korea, the first of 7 biggest sins of a woman is not producing a baby boy. My friend’s been trying for 4,5 years to have a baby and started her way to IVF which I think too early but she insisted upon pressure from the extended family & society. My other friend need to let go her...
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Reading a book, ‘Start with Why’ by Simon Sinek. Remind me of my experience with guys. There are some guys that just missed the point.
I know this guy from a journey we’ve been on together. He was nice and funny, so after the journey we continue to stay in touch. I know he’s looking for someone special and it’s crystal clear that he’s targeting me. Without me...
“I love you. Because you make me tell you everything. From my secrets to my...”
I am a part of one history. But I am no longer actively build the thing I was in. So, I let go, and create my own slice of history. Bigger one. Brighter one.
I live in a beautiful neighborhood. It’s a small clustered complex with 2 securities at front gate, shifting day and night. People will wake up early and play with children. Sometimes I can hear kids coming to turtles pool in front of my house and calling out their names (I am sad coz I lost 2 of my 3 turtles). From my working desk at home, I can see the sky directly, to check if it’s...
Young(er) man will introduce you on how to have a good time. Some of us will feel we’re too old for ice skating, or doing silly stuff. They’re the one whose gonna wipe off the doubt and take you to the adventure.
Enjoy the ride!
What If
“What if, I’m not around anymore?”
“What make you away?”
“I have to. It’s beyond me. Beyond my will.”
“I never thought of losing you.”
“You’ll always have me. But what if I’m not around anymore?”
“Like dead?”
“You can say so. I’ll be alive. But like I’m dead. I’m not...
At a dinner. Some friends introducing me as,
“Serial Entrepreneur.”
“She’s a book mafia.”
“I don’t know where to start.”
“She did everything and she’s not even 30.”
I think my friends are overwhelmed. I need to narrowed myself down.
Went to a geeky dinner today, and this girl been watching me like she recognize me. Then she said hi. “I think we’ve met before!”
Then I remember her. She’s the one that said I must have slept less, because I have achieved things. That day, I said I agree with her. I thought I slept around 4 hours a day. The next day I do some research on how I slept. And after several...
What if. People in your country, all look handsome and beautiful. Maybe like in Turkey. Or Brazil. Or Italy. Or wherever in the world. Then what would you consider the first ‘it’ factor in finding the one?